oh no!!

my blog was been hijacked by a BERUANGSS EDMONTON named LUQMAN NASRAN(refer to picture above). previous post was wrote and published by him.. muahahha

put sengals

putno mars bebai sbb x dapat jumpa blog artis terkenal =paris hilton!

hidup saya sbg seorg beruangs versi manusia mg mencabar...

ramai org suke curi syaa punye madu...

the time has come

Maybe it's time to let GO.. I hope --really2 hope, this time it will works out.
God help me to get through this.

T_T

I believe --trying to believe that-- God has His own plan for everyone of us.
I hope --really hoping hard that-- I can get through this with serenity.
I wish --dreaming my wish will come true-- I will be stronger to get through these difficulties.

Goodbye Pre-U

Update update!

lama suda tidak menjenguk darling ku BLOG ini. owh, bila seseekor mahluk suda mula menulis tentang diriku di blog nya, aku mnjenguk seketika, ku lihat satu esei panjang! peewit! karel, x jadi artis da popular! walaoweyh!! wakakka..

p/s: xda masa mau baca itu blog. ini blog pun tara masa mau tulis.

down

Mother, father, siblings (Kayren, Morten, Gordan), Gparents, Aunties, Uncles, Cousins (espeacially Hana, Hercules and Hubert), my 'party people (Peony, Olive, Caroline) my mum's burger, my room, my bed, my life, and you.. yeah you.. i miss all of U!!

Love!!

how come i can forget bout my dad's birthday and cant stop thinking bout 'his' bday!! damn it!!

sorry dad, sorry.. i love you!!

i thought it is on this 18th.. then he called me and asked me wat's the date of today.. i said, it's 14th. then he kept asking, ya, what day is today?.. i said it's sunday, y dad? he said, dont u remember something, i said no..
he asked me to remember it and tell him later on. then i checked my phne, shoot!! it's on 14th not 18th karel!! haha!
sorry dad, u know i ♥ u.. more than i ♥ myself.. haha
and i miss u too!! hoho..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you!!

dad, just so you know, u are my idol!!
i will try my best to make u happy!
u're working hard just to make sure that we got things that we need.
u are always there to be by my side, to provide me with love, protection, advices, needs, guidance and more where i couldn't finish listing and it will take more than a day to list it down.
eventhough sometimes i may argue and disagree with you, i know it is for my own good!

i wanna show the world that i love you..
and mum, i love you too..

i miss u damn much

when i think about what had happened, i still can't believe it. when i don't think about it, it feels like nothing happened and i can feel his presence. when i flash back the memories, i can't help it and tears are running down my face. honestly, i still can't accept what had happened. i refuse to!

may the departed soul rest in peace. Amen.


p/s: i <3 you so much Joel McGordan. i wish i could turn back the time. i wish you are here, with us.. we miss u so much. if i could, i would take u back home.. even if i have to travel in a long journey.. i would, but couldn't.

"It's important in life to conclude things properly. Only then can you let go. Otherwise you are left with words you should have said but never did, and your heart with remorse" (Martel, 384).

it's my life

dei, it's my life la.. i want to live it with my own ways, not urs..
i don't give a damn of what u--org2 yg sama waktu dgnnya- might think
hypocrisy? disguise? pretense?
FYI, i have my own life, and i don't live to please pepel la dei.. get a life la dei.. don't mess up with mine..

Realized

the moment i thought i have a lot of friend is the moment where i realized i seems have none

Fool's Garden

i'm sitting here in this boring room in CAsa
it's just another day of sunny Sunday afternoon
i'm wasting my time
i got nothing to do--so i log in facebook n found out this;
i may not a good friend of you,

but i wonder how i wonder why,
yesterday she told me they are good friends
when i stalk her facebook, there's none of her photo inside??
and all that i can see is her other friends
i clicking on the pictures, next and next
im clicking clicking over and over again
and all that i can see is --none of her photo..

isolation? is it good for you?
isolation, i dont wanna sit on the lemon tree..

Why? ask yourselves girl
again, i may not a good friend of yours

Kill Chemistry

just to showing off...
i woke up at 0340hrs then mandi manda--to avoid ke-mengantok-an,
drank hot tea, then studied my beloved one, Chemistry--his name.
wahaha..
i manage to finish revise one topic in one hour..--i start at 0500hrs
yuhuuu.. what an achievement!!!

p/s: this 'reaction' only occurs when the constant, k, of my frustration is increasing. therefore, as k, increase, the rate of reaction is also increase..
and as the reaction proceeds, the concentration of the "reactants of my determination" will decrease, which results in the decrease of the rate of reaction. however, the constant, k, of my frustration will not change in a constant condition.

yay!!!!!

it's 2212 hr and i dont even complete my homeworks!! yay! im GREAT!! AWESOME! and most of all.... most of all... im DOOM!!


p/s: JAne, please don't disturb me. i know ur works are done. thumbs down for u!! friend won't let friend in trouble alone!!

Elite? i'm NOT one of them.

just finished reading chemistry note my lect posted in BB7.
and this song plays in my mind

i say: ke-kunfius-an yang melanda menikam-nikam jiwa..
selemah ku lemah daku berserah..

chemistry answers: jangan kau cabar! aku bukannya selemah yang kau sangka, aku x rela diseksa.. haa aah~ rasakan kuasa, tamparan KIMIA

oh kimia, mata bertentang mata, ada kah kau terasa, benci kian membakar di hati aku,. kau istimewa paling utama yang satu, betapa susahnya aku nak senyum bila baca mu... oh susahnya, susah aku nak senyum

haiyooo, hard and can't understand. i need brain! smart one!!
one of them??? mm..?? any suggestion? o_O
anyway, time to sleep! ~o~

Perfect? (2)

GOD HAS HIS OWN PLANS EVERYONE OF US
just like a little blind girl who can play piano at age 3. she can play the song just by listening to the song once. she was abandoned by her parents and she is adopted by her mother.
her name is Yoo Ye Eun. eventhough she's blind since she was born, she is so blessed to have a special talent given by God. yah, u can argue with me, but i believe it was given by God.
ke-jakoon-an menikam2 jiwa, because-- at first i want to attach a video of Ye Eun playing piano at a show(korean show), but i don't know how to download a avi or mpeg format, then i just attach the link.. should be ok! xp
you should watch it from the beginning until the end because there's a part where she sings her foster mother's favorite song and in the same time playing the piano. it's so touching. i saw this video in moral studies class. i nearly cry, but fortunately i can control my feeling. it'll be so embarrassing to cry in the class. hee~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nSOaLH8vxYw



at first, i envy her to have a really special talent at young age. but then, i was thinking, she might envy others for she can't see the world. maybe she would rather to have an ordinary life with her parents and not to be born blind, even with no special talent. well, it not her to ask for those talent and be born blind.
what i've learned from her is i should be thankful with what i got.
yeah, eventhough i've lost my youngest brother about a month ago, i believe that God has a plan for me. at least i still have my family and friends beside me. i still can talk, walk, speak, see, eat, feel, go to college, homeworks, and i know, these are all the blessing God has given me. even the
double-trouble are his blessing coz they make us stronger day by day.


nobody's perfect, even a richest guy in the world with a damn hot and beautiful wife, with cute little chidren, one boy and one girl, living a luxury-- i believe he does has a lot of problems too!
for example, Tiger Woods, he looks like he has a lot to do to settle down his 'scandalism' world!
i though he is a nice man, i admired him before, but not anymore. yah, like i said before, no one is perfect, but please la, appreciate what u got la man!

so, my policy is-- living in the moment!!
we would not know what will happen next. but, once it has happened, we can't stop and avoid it, so what's the use of worrying?
whether worrying about things we can't stop or just living the moment without worrying much.
it's your choice.
for me, i just do what i have to do.
responsibility is my priority--which include my responsibility to my family and my academics.
so i guess this is the end.. not the end of my life, hee~, the end of this post coz i have to study for my Chemistry quiz tomorrow!
so long! see yah!

Perfect? (1)

the weather is so hot today! as hot as hot dog--cited from an old friend of mine. haha!
well usually me and my friends, Jane and Fit will go to Kak Su or mamak to get something to eat. but today, we arrive CASA SUBANG earlier than usual and we don't feel hungry anyway, so we go straight to our own unit. huu~
but so hot le~~

this morning, moral studies class was so boring! -actually everyday, it's boring-
i drew some stuff on my notebook! this's how it looks!


i have to admit that i'm not a good artist--i wish i could be.
but i believe each one of us have our own capability. God has his plan for each and everyone of us.
yup3! and sure He got his plan when i have to spend an hour break alone in college. hee~
most of the time, i go to cafeteria, sit at the back side of the cafeteria and do my homework while waiting for my friends. but today, this is what i've did! xda keja--ambik gmbr ntah..

scenery from where i sat just now


i even took the pic of the stairs just not far beside me
i named this pic as :
STAIRWAYS TO CALCULUS AND VECTORS

to be continued...

Ahh Cun nyaa~

yesterday, after attended the Edu. Fair in Hilton Hotel, aku, Irfan, Fit, Afif and Abe Pa(azfar) went to KLCC. i met Zahid AF kot, in Nike store, if im not mistaken.. huu~
not to act like a jakoon, but, he is the first Malaysian artist i met in KL--since i was here!
haha... yes, he is pendek as he is! haha! and i dont bother to greet or ask for his autograph.

p/s: wish i cud met Pierre Bouvier or any of Hollywood artist in Canada, and if i do, i will hug him and wont let go! haha--macam la confirmed g Canada.. Huu~
the keyword is "I Wish"
ah cun nyaa!! haha

out of nothing at Chemistry

I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers
And I know just how to lie
I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream

And I know just where to touch you
And I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose
And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you
Everything I gotta tell you
But I know I gotta give it a try

And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules
And I know how to break 'em

And I always know the name of the game

But I don't know how to answer these Chemistry Questions,
and i never let myself fail,
and i never know how you do it,
making my life worse out of nothing at all

Calculus & Vectors

so far, i'm doing good in vectors. we just learned the front topic of the chapter--until 6.3.
i'll be having QuiZ tomorrow~~
ugh.. im not prepare yet. just completed my application to U of A.
but there are so much more to do. i have to photocopy all the documents needed. and certified them all. the worst thing is, i need to summit them all tomorrow.
HIGHLIGHT for tomorrow-21st of JAn 2010:
1. Calculus and Vectors Quiz
2. Chemistry Quiz
3. Summit the U application documents
4. Life of Pi during free period-- as usual, in cafe or library

hey, check out my CALCULUS & VECTORS exercise book. CUTE kan??
huu.. i took this picture after completed my my calculus and vectors homework in library just now. feel bored and nothing to do -actually there's a lot, indeed!!
psstt! using cute book in hoping i will be more semangat to study--kononn!! xp